So, I adore and love and trust you guys. Clearly. Thus, I have no problem angsting in SPECIFICS to you.
So, after I finished grade 12, I was all YAY OMG UNI YAY SQUEE WHEN CAN I START. That was fun. Did a year of a BA before I realised that they're worth precisely NOTHING with regard to getting ANY kind of job, particularly with my major in ancient history. Who needs ancient history outside of fandom/academia (which, really? Same place.)? Thus, I changed to Multimedia Design, which as it turns out, I have no brain for programming, and SUCK at. At this point, it dragged my GPA down something FIERCE, so ... well, I may check my options still for UQ, because I have absolutely ZERO qualifications to work, having spent all of those years when all of my friends had jobs doing these stupid CLASSES, which while probably upped my grade so I could get into a good school, didn't bring me anything else. In any case, I'd rather not spend YEARS more of my life doing courses so I can get a job to earn money to go to fucking LSU eventual. Not to mention the MONEY, Christ.
So, I figured, hey, crazy, 6 month childcare degree, quick and easy, and once qualified can earn BOATLOADS OMG of money. As in, from 1 and a half to three times what I'd earn doing retail or pretty much anything else. Awesome, non? Problem is, would only have six months to pay off four grand of fees. And really they prefer up front. Now, here? They don't do much in the way of student loans. There is at least one bank I might talk to, but the problem with a bank loan is that I don't have a job or any kind of steady fucking income. Mother says they can't just drop $4000 on a course "and what guarantee does she have that I'll keep with it"?
I realise that the track record of thus far isn't golden with school things, but Jesus McFUCK, this is something I've already been DOING for almost 8 years, and it's something that can earn me THREVES of money and I can use for money while travelling.
And while I'm on the topic, while we 'discussed' this? I ask, okay, what are my options here, and I get a SCREAMING MATCH about all SORTS of fucking things, and I realise that the mother has NO idea what she's talking about. Tells me she had a job at 17 because she could type, and hello apparently she fucking thinks that's all it takes NOW. Jesus Christ. I'm so fucking pissed and upset I can't see straight.
I have no qualifications because I spent my years at school STUDYING, they can't afford to send me to school where I would, you know, learn to do something that I'd be good at, and I can't even get the degree that would allow ME to earn the money to do anthropology. I just need to go HOME. Current Mood: depressed